[gram] The busier it gets, the more I forget to seduce. Liberating myself from busy-ness, that's what this is.

[last sib] I tried to busy myself once with the process of regeneration. I thought I could recharge all of my energy cells just by staying mute, abstinent. I started getting cranky, would find myself saying things that I felt uncomfortable saying, as if I were now in somebody else's control, somebody who wanted to see me dead, someone who wanted to use me for their own asexual pleasures...